been raving about my vaio. hehehe. but i got a why-did-you-buy-that question from my cousin. err... because i want to? :p i need it for school. come onst. i have my syllabus. i'm researching on this marketing campaign. i got my books from bennets. new ones. which i received specific instructions not to highlight because they were freaking expensive. plus i got a geographic information system cd which i have to install on a windows xp system. what?? howell. i really really need to read.

i dunno if i should be happy or sad. i tried to get contact lenses for the first time because i've been wearing glasses since sophomore college. but lo and behold, the optometrist, Dr Bhullar, told me that i don't need anything to aid my eyes. apparently, i have 20-20 vision. it's either a miracle or i've been ripped of by filipino optometrists all my life. she asked me to show her my glasses because i didn't have it when i had my eyes checked. i will dropped by her office one of these days.

tita left for world youth day in sydney early this morning. charles, tito benjie, mom and i dropped her off the airport. it was so cooooold. but there were so many eager youngsters i couldn't help but smile.



speaking of WYD, did you know that the biggest gathering in humanity happened in Manila thirteen years ago when the late Pope John Paul II celebrated mass? There were 4.5 million who attended. Half-million more than the population of New Zealand. amazing, isn't it?

too bad i can't go this year. but i'd probably go to sydney this Christmas. for now, i shall toil hard and toil good. :)

cheers everyone.

lately i've been thinking... (don't act surprised)

of feigning responses for the benefit of those who seek answers,
of settling down and happy endings,
of being in two places at the same time,
of smiling though beaten,
of watching you like no one ever did,
of numbness and the wonders it can do to the art of coping.
of daisies and beautiful things,
of relishing idle moments,
of little triumphs like soduko puzzles and reading a good book,
of taking the gist in lectures,
of talking in a second language,
of absurdities and realities,
of a million what if's,
of writing a book which could leave traces of up to 100 years,
of being a great philosophical thinker someday, soon.

one at a time. the eiffel tower wasn't built in one day.

*crossposted from LJ.

I am uneasy. Something tells me I should be doing something to save others, my loved ones particularly, from their troubles. See, I do not have a damsel-in-distress-complex. I have the opposite. Like you know, prince charming only I'm a full-pledged heterosexual female. And I do not intend to exclusively help out girls, I'd like to help out boy (space) friends as well.

Let me digress, because the term heterosexual reminds me so much of biology, genetics, chromosomes and phenotypes. And I am also reminded of a red bull ad with a girl asking her boyfriend if he needed help in biology practical. I didn't find it funny. Hmmm. Maybe I'm on to my "manang" years? Oh for pete's sake, I'm just 23. I should stop making a huge deal out of my age. I know, let's credit it to the fact that I've been brought up in a country where sex as a subject is taboo. And I'm also concerned with the kids who watch the ad. Kids pay particular attention to advertisements. I'm not saying they'd definitely emulate what they see in those ads. It's just that they could have come up with a better ad that would promote better values.

Speaking of ads, my major will be marketing. I took time to see class schedules and the handlers aka professors. I don't know if I should be relieved that majority of them are Asians. But I would love to have Asian friends from school. I hope to have so much fun learning with them. I have this feeling that majority of the class will be Asians anyway. I should stop this Asian thing right now. I sound like a fan of racism.

I don't like to appear that narrow-minded. But apparently, I have to deal with some people who are. The crab mentality is still in the works ladies and gents. Even here in this progressive country where the value of money is more than the Philippine Peso. I am saddened by those people who act like they could have invented the caste system in India. You are Filipinos for crying out loud. Help each other. Whatever happened to Filipino values like pakikipagkapwa, pakikipag-isa and all that? I guess the best thing is to keep distance. I don't want to be indifferent and apathetic but certain circumstances, like this (picture me pointing to a filipino spreading ill things about someone), force me to do so. I would really rather be unnoticed and unfriendly towards those bunch.

Now let's go back to helping friends. Did I really have to be involved in a lover's quarrel a while ago? I had a choice not to but I really care about this couple so I tried to intercept even if I'm a million miles away. I just wish things will be better when she wakes up tomorrow and he too realizes how cruel he had been.

I love seeing things running smoothly because smooth is the only way to go in this life filled with creases. I love for everyone to get happy because there is no better time to be happy but now. Instead of being a damsel who needs saving, maybe it'd be better if one goes pro-active and do the saving instead.

Peachy. Preachy. My brain is in a fuzz right now. I feel so cooooollllddd.

Few bumps on the road ladies and gents. Apparently, I cannot serve two masters at the same time. Either I work full time and study part-time (with only up to two papers in one sem, extramural at that and would take longer than usual) or study full time and work 20 hours per week which would mean less moolah. Gah, I am so distressed. But yes, I have an offer from Massey. Woot!